So I figured out that I get so bored during the day that I think about the most random things. I thought about skittles, paint, smoke, popcorn, comics, and color in one hour. I think I'm slowly losing my mind and its fucking hilarious. That and I do live in my own little world. There are purple bunnies, pink snakes, and gold unicorns. The sky is purple and green and the grass is blue and tastes like cotton candy. I fly from little orange trees to little red ones, and I never want to leave. The clouds and little kettle popcorn pieces, and it rains M&M's cause i like the chocolate. The river...is silver candies. But there is one part where it's just blue water where I swim. It has a bottom and I can see where it ends so the water doesn't scare me. But right now I'm laying in the licorice hammock and drinking whiskey cause I can in my world. And don't think I'm on drugs with this or something, cause believe me, I'm not. This is just me normal. Completely sober and...well, I had coffee and M&M's....so that might do something. But that's all. Anyways, that is where I go when I am not in a safe place or I don't like what's going on around me. So it keeps me from getting hurt mentally. My brain just runs away to my own world that I created in my head so that it can't see the bad stuff anymore. And I find myself going there more often now, so that I'm constantly spacing out. My grandmother even notices. It shows up in my eyes, my actions, and if I have a pen or a pencil in front of me, it'll show up in my drawing and stories. It's kind of funny reading them when I come back to reality. It's like I never left my own world. I like mine better than the one I'm in right now anyways. It's so much more peaceful; it's like I wanna bring everyone to my world and solve all the icky problems. Like, there is so much money in my world that no one would have to work. And there is no war and no one person leading the entire world. Everyone is friends, and bad things don't happen. Which is so much better than the real world cause bad things happen way too often. And people are perfect just the way they are too. No one diets, no one hates who they are, no one has icky scars from trying to get themselves out of the crappy world they live in. It's a better place for people. I know all my scars and all my worries disappear when I'm there. If you think I'm crazy from this, then you have no idea. This could get so much worse. lol. I think that's funny too. This is all just the tip of the iceberg. Like the one from titanic. ^.^ I hate that movie and I love it at the same time. I love it cause it's a good movie. A good script. But I hate it cause it makes me cry every time I watch it. I also like it cause I have the biggest crush on Kate Winslet. She's super pretty. And I love her accent.
I'm gonna close this up now so that you can't see into my mind anymore.....