Stupid Life Stuff....

Stupid things aren't supposed to be happening right now. At least not so close together.

My mom isn't supposed to be this sick, I don't want to be this stressed out, my dad is also causing so much extra stress by talking to my little brother about things that he shouldn't be talking to him about. And also telling him things that he shoud be telling me. Not my brother or even my mom.. For one its not good for the baby, but it makes me feel kinda weak when I stress. And apparently I tend to take it out on other people. I'm pushing the people I love the most out of the way when I should be holding them the closest. And it makes no sense to me. Its stupid. I hate having to be in charge of someone elses life...even though I'm gonna have to make someone else decisions for the next 10 years or more. I just don't like it. Not right now.

I feel like I just need to escape for a while. Then maybe when I get back things would be better and wouldn't fail out anymore. But that's all just wishful thinking. Cause it'll never happen.........