So, I recently reconnected with a friend from my elementary school. Tell me thata wasn't a long time ago. But it is...and I'm wondering what to do now. I never once dreamed that we'd have the kind of relationship we have now, and i'm scared of how it could end up. I mean, I'll never stop being his friend cause I'm not like that. But I'm scared because of how my life has been going so far. Cause it kind sucks. Really bad so far. I'm not explaining it here, but if you know me, then you probably already know. But moving on from that.....I found out that makeup dosen't work when you try and cover up a hickey on your neck. It actually makes it darker. So I found. My grandmother said that it made me look like a 'good-time girl'....so if anyone can explain this to me that would be absolutely wonderful.
And one other thing, is that I've been feeling more normal lately. I know that sounds weird cause there is no such thing as normal, but it's at least a normal-like feeling. I haven't felt like this in way too long and it kinda scares me. To say the least. I mean, it's not a bad thing, but its just, i've been hurt too many times to the point where I can't even see the good in the world anymore. There are small things that make me think that there is hope for it left, but not very much. It's almost like the human population needs to die off, and then somehow be reborn in the world as much better people. It'd make such a big difference.
I've been listening to more love songs lately and it's just a little scary. I'm not much for love songs, but they've been making me feel more relaxed lately. It's a little weird feeling. Plus, there is a new song that I was told was like my song or something. I think it's 'Beautiful' by Akon?! I'm not sure.
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